Ever wanted to tell someone something but when you two are together it just doesn't come out? Like you're too scared of what might happen that you don't do it? I had that feeling today creep up on me. I want to tell the person everything that's on my mind. But I just havn't gotten the guts to do so. And now I fear it's just too late.

People who know me know what i'm talking about. It's been something on my mind for quite a time. Why can't I just say it? I read on a friends MSN names. "When you have everything you have everything to lose." Well likewise if you have nothing you have nothing to lose. So why the hell am I so scared? Scared of what? Rejection? Not like it hasnt happened before. Ugh, this is just eating me up inside.

I swear, the more time I spend with you, the more I'm reminded of why the hell I can't say the words in my head. I wish I could tell you, but I just don't know why I can't. We're close and everything but perhaps we're too close? So close that it'd be awkward? I don't know.