Well, I eventually told them. Nothing's happened so far though. And Most likely it will remain that way. No interest has been shown from the other party so I guess its just not going to work out.

Am I mad? Am I sad? Sure probably a little because we can't be more than friends but it's all good. At least we're still friends and we can still hang out and everything. Although I can't never seem to reach you but its all good. Well that's my quick ramble and catch up on the previous entry.

As for today... I did absolutely nothing, Soo friggin boring. but near the end of the day I did become a little more productive, in that I actually got the front seats in for the buick that i'm about to junk. That and I also got the engine into the front seat as well. That was a bitch. Thank goodness that I have a strong brother. LoL BUT I DO believe that i'm gonna be stronger than him soon =P With the shit i'm doing I wouldn't be surprised.

Well that's pretty much all i did today so that would mean the end for this entry.

Ever wanted to tell someone something but when you two are together it just doesn't come out? Like you're too scared of what might happen that you don't do it? I had that feeling today creep up on me. I want to tell the person everything that's on my mind. But I just havn't gotten the guts to do so. And now I fear it's just too late.

People who know me know what i'm talking about. It's been something on my mind for quite a time. Why can't I just say it? I read on a friends MSN names. "When you have everything you have everything to lose." Well likewise if you have nothing you have nothing to lose. So why the hell am I so scared? Scared of what? Rejection? Not like it hasnt happened before. Ugh, this is just eating me up inside.

I swear, the more time I spend with you, the more I'm reminded of why the hell I can't say the words in my head. I wish I could tell you, but I just don't know why I can't. We're close and everything but perhaps we're too close? So close that it'd be awkward? I don't know.

Summary

I'm just going to sum up what happened in the past couple of weeks since my last post. So here goes.

Been busy for the past couple of weeks doing this and that. I finished building mike's trunk which looks incredible right now. It's completely finished. The bottom part with the plexy-glass and the sub and the top part with the two speakers and the 7" screen. Looks awesome.

On the same note, Mike just recently won a trophy for "best 4 door civic heads up" at the molson grand prix/tuner event. It was great! We totally beat this other green civic with the "garbage bag" paint job, modified doors, wrapped stock seats and air ride suspensions. It looked crazy, but since mike had more stuff all around, he won =)

Now I don't know if I should really be celebrating because technically it isn't my car, nor was the trunk my idea, I just built it. In the real world it doesn't really matter who builds it, it's the idea that makes the greens. Sooo all in all I did jack all. LoL

What else. Oh, We went to wasaga beach over canada long weekend. It was great! We had a lot of fun! went to the beach, chilled, hung out, cooked our own food. It was just superb =) Couldn't have asked for more. LoL one of the more memorable moments for me was when we were lighting the fireworkds outside. I was a little bit buzzed and i was trying to light 2 fireworks at once... but it wasn't working for the second firework... so i had to jump out of the way of the first firework. Damn that's one LOUD bang. Don't think i've ever been that close to something that noisy before. Aside from lil kids =)

After I returned home from the trip, I heard that my brother was involved in a car accident. Not to worry though because he and his gf are both fine. He hit a car and kinda screwed up the front end of his gf's car. So they got an estimate and they're asking for about 2.5-3k to fix the damn thing. My brother said fuck that and decided to fix it himself. We got the parts from mike who got the parts super fast. Me and my bro spent a good day ripping appart the bumper and pounding in some rough edges. It was fun =) I like spending time with my brother. he's the coolest one out of the others. =)

Of course the car isn't done yet but it's almost there. Just gotta plop the radiator back in, connect some hoses and attach everything and it'll be good as new =)

aahhhhhh there's a good 2 weeks worth of events. All in all everything is going cool. I'm just sitting back and enjoying everything and taking in this summer. I find that I have a whole lot more free time w/out work and everything, so overall I do believe that most of my days are productive. I like that =)