Friday, September 30, 2005

What a tiring day...

O man, you wouldn't believe how tired I am right now. This is probably the first time i've been this tired for a while.

Let's see, Started off my day pretty shitty... Went to class and I knew there was an inclass assignment thing, but it had to do with like present value and future value and stuff. So I didn't think it woulda been that tough! WRONG! it was hard as hell! I swear I couldn't do it! Goes to show that I shoulda done some work on that! LoL. Then I went to Astronomy class. That wasn't too bad, a lil boring, but it was still pretty cool. Chatted with A friend in there. Yes... A... i'm not that popular you see. LoL. Then I had my 3 hour break. It was'nt bad at all. I just played games in the ITM lounge =D mouahhaaa but that tired me out. Then went to class and played more games and chatted with friends. After like an hour, he dismisses us. My friends were like "this class is so useless, I came here just for this one hour class?" LoL. I should really get cracking on that course. I have a midterm next week. =S It's a 50 question MC and everything is from the textbook. So I don't know why I bother waiting there for that class.

My goals for this semster is to get the following:
A in Astronomy
B- in Finance
B in Database
A in Java/PHP
C+ in Law
B- in Telecom

I really hope i get something like that. I'll look back on this post to see if I got something CLOSE to this. LoL Hopefully i'll exceed it =D.

Neways, after I got home, I ate something and helped my dad out with the car. FINALLY DONE. That AC shit really is a tough lil bugger. But at least now it's a smooth ride =) I'm happy that my car is happy =D hehehe. Well, it's pretty close to bed time, so i'm out!

Thursday, September 29, 2005

What's new?

Hiyooo been a while since i wrote anything in here. LoL Almost a whole WEEK. So let's start with... what's going on! haha!

Let's see, nothing much is really up with me lately. Just working on school shit every now and then. My car is currently being fixed, somewhat. I say SOMEWHAT because it's half done. We found out that it was the A/C that was fucking up, and we ripped out the pulley and clutch and crap. Man, it looked pretty bad still. LoL So yup!

I'm quite bored right now in class. I should really be paying attention, but i don't want to. *sigh* o well, I guess i should. Laters

Friday, September 23, 2005

RACIST RESTAURANT!

DAMN RESTAURANT! soooo racist! i swear. Ok so this is what happened yesterday at this restaurant that we went to (Mike's Mom, Dad, Jamie, Mike, Ray, Ryan and I) So... Ray and I get to the restaurant first, and we ask for a table. The lady there assumes it's just for TWO people. Ya I know that part isn't racist but still. I found that quite awkward. Ray corrected them and said it was for 7 people. She said alright and lead us to a table. Now there were two tables there. One with everything set up, and one with nothing set up. So they put us on the table with NOTHING on it. Cept a friggin cloth. Then Ryan makes his grand entrance, and sits down with us. Shortly after, a waiter comes by and puts stuff on the table. Not too bad right? WRONG! The fucking guy brings over plates and bowls and sets up only the bowls! And leaves the plates stacked up, along with the napkins. Like what the fuck. Then after talking with Ray and Ryan, I noticed on top of the plates, there were forks. I tell Ray and Ryan "Yo guy, they don't fucking think we can use chopsticks or something? Just cuz they see a frigging white guy, black guy and a chinese guy, they assume we can't use chopsticks?"

I just realized at that point what Andrew was talking about. This guy at Mike's work named Andrew. He's the boss' Son. He was telling me how when he goes to get some chinese food, and he asks for chopsticks, they go all bug eyed and are like "U CAN USE CHOPSTICKS?" Like WTF y'know. If we need forks or something, we'll ask for it damnit.

Neways, I kept complain about that to Ryan and Ray, and so Ryan got fed up and went to the other table and took the chopsticks from there and put them on our table in the fashion they're suppose to be in. A pair of chopsticks per seat kinda thing. Then we were just talkin and stuff, and a fucking waiter guy comes by and sees the chopsticks, and goes over and picks up every pair of chopsticks and walks away with them. ALL of us were like WTF is this motherfucker doing! As he left, another waiter came by, and I full said pretty loud "could we get some chopsticks please." I really hope that fucker heard me. And throughout the whole dinner, the fucker was looking at me. So whatever, I had to make some fone calls after that, and ppl called me and stuff. When I get back, I find that they finally gave us chopsticks but guess what? THEY CAN'T FUCKING COUNT! we were like 2 pairs of chopsticks short. Guess they think Ryan and Ray can't use chopsticks or something. Fucking asses. Then our food came.. SLOWLY I might add. and ya. They were lucky they didn't piss me off even more... otherwise I woulda made a huge scene there. Freaking asses I swear. I kept smelling my water too, just in case they used fucking toilet water or something. Damn. So ya! if y'all ever goto this restaurant called "THE PERFECT CHINESE RESTAURANT" make sure y'all come in a group of chinese people. Otherwise your service will be shit. HA! perfect my ass.

On a different note, I was quite happy yesterday being with the group. Course people were missing and stuff, but iunno, it felt comfortable yesterday. It was Mike, Ryan, Ray, Shirley, Linda, Val and I. I don't know why it felt so comfortable, but it just did. I enjoyed it =) It's a shame that I had to wake up early for school =( Maybe we'll do something today? iunno.

I know this decision thing keeps popping up in this blog but it is what's on my mind. I really don't know what to do. I forget.. but I think my fortune cookie yesterday said something like "a small step may lead to somethings quite bigger" or something like that. LOL Ryan got a fortune cookie that said "Your hard efforts will soon be rewarded" Will that be tru? iunno!! we'll haveta see!

Neways back to what was on my mind before I forget. I still don't know what decisions I should be making at this point in time. I think one of these days i should just say everything that's on my mind and see what people think. And then make my decision on that. But i think i know where most people stand. but iunno. it helps to have them tell me the same thing over again and the reasons why they think it's a good idea. =) so yup! i'm outta here!

Thursday, September 22, 2005

I wonder....

Well, i'm outside my class right now waiting for my class to start. Soo tired still. I feel asleep on the subway to school again. LoL! It was a refreshing nap for like half an hour. Still wasn't enough. I met Daniel again today outside of my astronomy class. Lol, poor guy had class at 9 this morning. O well. I had class one hour after him so it's about the same.

Yep, i'm still bored. Waiting for class is so boring. I want to go home really. But i know i can't do that. OH! on a different note, I made a new friend today! In astronomy class! Of ALL places.. astronomy. LoL. Found out she's studying law and stuff like that, which is pretty cool since it's a new program at Ryerson or something. Plus she could probably hep me with Law! lolz i don't know what the hell is going on there. But yup! it's nice to meet new people =)

Hmmm, I wonder if anyone really reads all this! LOL but then again it is suppose to be for myself, just that others MAY have the opportunity to read it as well. Ah well.. whatever. I gotta look over somethings to try and "prepare" for my quiz =S EZ

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

It's too early =(

Man, I really hate the Tuesday - Wednesday transitions. I end up sleeping really late and waking up really early. This is really not cool. But I keep telling myself it's only for another 9-10 weeks. then I don't need to do it anymore. I'm sooo looking forward to when I can say "this is the last time i'm gonna do this" But that won't be fore a while.

On a different note. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE!! lol. I would text message you, but I still think it's too early to text you. Might wake you up or something. Lol, so I guess i'll text message you between 9:30-10 lol! hope you're sitll not sleeping man! lolz!

As for some unfinished thoughts. I don't know which i'll follow. I guess the only thing that'll actually confirm a selection is... whether or not I feel it is a good decision. LoL, Kinda obvious, but it's such a hard decision because i don't know where both of us stand. Maybe a talk would help, but i tried the other day, and it sorta confused me more. LoL, so iunno. We'll just haveta wait and see now.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Confusion

So, why am I so confused lately? that's a very good question. So here's the long version of everything.

Alrighty, there's been lots of things thats been happening in the past month and so. Things just confuse me about me and her. One time it feels as if we're close, the next, we're far appart. I don't know which one is the right decision. And we have different ideas on what's going on. It's like we're not on the same page and instead we're in different books. I really don't know what's going on with her. I don't really want to know about her and him which is why i'm so lost. I don't want to get involved because I know it will just make me angry. So, I just keep my distance from that subject as much as I can.

Well, i'll just say my whole long story.
First off, after the break up, I did still love her, but in my mind I knew things wouldn't go back to the way things were. I tried twice to see if we could get back together, but those attempts didn't work. So I started to give up. Tried to move on and such. It was slowly working, regardless of the phone calls. We still kept in contact, and just talked about our day and stuff. I mainly let her talk because I had nothing much to say after I had talked about my day. I didn't dare ask how she was doing with him and things. Even if they were goin through rough times or good times. I've only talked about that once with her. I find it just too awkward.

Well, after a while, I had my mind set up on moving on, but I still felt like being with her, I was missing her and everything. But one night, I saw a picture that totally killed me. I've only told one person about it. The person tried to reassure me of somethings, and it helped, but only a little compared to what i felt when i saw it. After that, I totally figured that it was best to just move on, and not let these things hurt me anymore.

Things just got weirder after that. She still bought me things, and wrote me notes and everything. Kinda confused me at first because I was thinking why would she get me this? I know I said I wanted to try the drink, but why go through the trouble in buying it for me? I thought about it, and I had concluded that she was just being nice, and got it for me.

Then there was my birthday present she had gotten me. This confused me even more because of the letter she wrote me along with the present. In my mind, the note was telling me that there's still hope for us. And after like a day or two of thinking, I decided to talk to her about it. So I called her and asked if she was doing nething that night. She wasn't so I decided to ask her to come out. I was doing some stuff, and I was going to meet up with a bunch of friends who she was with before. When I got there, she wasn't there. Kinda odd, so I thought she just went home or whatever. I gave her a call after some time. When I was talkin to her, I found out she was with him. That confused me even more. Like why the hope and then go see him? I was quite mad so when we left to go meet up with other people, I totally went 100 down kennedy. I was weaving and everything. I don't know what I woulda done if I didn't have a car.

After a while i went to go get her and brought her to where we were. Then a couple hours pass, and we were cold so we decided to go into my car. We went and we started talking. What she had to say, confused me more. But she did mention how she was still deciding and stuff. She also told me that there was an actual reason now for why she is with him. She wouldn't tell me what tho, just yet.

Iunno, there's just too many things that are confusing. I don't know if she wants to get back together or not. I know she still cares about me, but it also confuses me that she'd be jealous of someone else that I hang around with and talk to. I really don't know how to handle this situation anymore. Too much confusion in this mind. I can't really figure things out unless i know where she stands in all this. I'm stuck between two paths, my heart, or my head. Which to choose? I don't know. I did want to choose my heart, but it hurts, and now i'm leaning towards my head.

Any suggestions?

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Party Day

Wow, Yesterday was such a big surprise. Totally didn't expect everything that happened yesterday. Blew my mind WIDE open.

Ok, so everything started off innocent, all was going ok. Had planned to do nothing that day, except to go shopping with Val. So we went shopping. It wasn't much shopping cuz it was all part of everyone's plan. So yup! we went shopping, got something here and there, then we waited around for Mike to come get us. We waited and talked a bit, and we were all going out for dinner at Boston Pizza. I though it'd only be us 5 because Linda told me that everyone was busy and crap so I thought nothing of it.

When we got there, I was so confused, because when we were asking for a table, they were like "you'll haveta wait a while, blah blah blah, we dont' have any seats for TEN?" I was thinking "wtf, there's only 5 of us here" and I seriously turned around and asked Mike if this is our party, and he confirmed it. So I was confused there, and I looked around. I noticed a table sooo close to the door with like menu's held up and 2 ppl with their backs facing us. I looked at one of the shirts, and I knew it was Dave! So I walked up to the table and found out it was Shirley, Virginia, Dave, Nigel and Bonnie. Lol! craziness eh? Then after saying hi to everyone I was about to sit down next to Dave. But I noticed there were boxes at either end of the tables. I was interested in it so I went to see what it was. (I really thought it was like food or sometihng they ordered) I saw on the top of the box "STi"

Nooooo way I thought. I looked at the top of the box, and it was all from Ryan! Noooo way y'know! So I went over and gave him a hug and told him thanks and I kept saying thanks throughout the night because it was so cool. Neways, Mike and I opened it at the same time and I found that there was a Subaru shirt inside, a Subaru Key chain, A chain, and most of all, a Subaru Model car that was suped up. Some crazy shit! I could not believe he had done this for me. What a crazy man! haha!

For the whole dinner, I was in like shock, just looking at the subaru (cuz I kept it on the table =) ). So then yup! Then we all decided to goto Linda's house, not knowing there'd be even more surprises!

We got into her house and we were waiting for everyone. Then Ryan and everyone was like "Jon go help Mike outside with the Firepit cuz we want to roast some marshmellows" So Mike and I both said ok, but mike went out first. And I knew something was up, but I couldn't put my finger on it, and when I told everyone "oh I need my shoes" I hear Mike scream and like all his car buddies were like splashing water and everything on him. Meanwhile i'm inside and I'm like, I'm not goin out. HAHA Then everyone tries to push me out but they couldn't get me out. Except Val. She pushed me out somehow and I fully ran around the house and through the front door. HAHA No wetness for me! haha Cept when Mike gave me a hug. LOL

Then shortly afterwards, I was just standing around and Linda comes up to me and tells me that there's still a surprise for me. I was scared cuz I didn't want to get like soaked or nething like that. So then she leads me to a room where all her dads electronic stuff is stored. And I find a punching bag! THEY GOT ME A PUNCHING BAG!! I couldn't believe it. Now I have something to punch when I get frustrated and stuff! Lol it was funny cuz Linda had put a picture of ryan on the punching bag! lolz! it was very halarious and entertaining.

After that, I watched other people play pool and everything. Just sitting there relaxing with friends, talking and stuff. Then Linda came downstairs and grabs my arm and says that there's ANOTHER surprise. In my mind I was thinking first off, what could it be, and second, why more? Lol! turns out it wasn't a present, but a pressence. I went upstairs and just as I got there, Andy walked through the door. Man, havn't seen that guy since that day I went to see him in the hospital. He looks chubbier, but his attitude still remained. It was such a great surprise. I seriously can't believe that everyone did all this for Mike and I. It was just too overwhelming.

A combination of Ryan's present, then the party, then Andy showing up, Val's present, and just everyone being there. It was great. I'm so lucky to have great friends like that.

I just haveta say it again to everyone. Thanks everyone for such a great night, Thanks for the gifts and Thanks for everyone for showing up. Honestly this was seriously my first "Birthday" party. Honest to god. I've always told my mom that I didn't want any parties even though she insisted, I still refused. Why? I don't know. I guess I just didn't want people to feel obligated to give me a present. I think i'd be happy just going out to dinner with my friends. Well, I think that about sums up what happened at the party. So that's all for this entry! Cya!

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

A song I love

I seriously love this song. Well, there are probably better ones, but i like the beat.

Sahara - I remember

I remember when,
You and I were friends,
The games we used to play,
Remember yesterday,
I see it in your eyes,
There's no reason why,
Your lies run through my head,
I can't comprehend. (I can't comprehend)

Can you erase the pain,
Ease away the pain,
Turn it into night,
I don't want to fight,
The way I loved you then,
It happened once again,
I'm leaving it behind,
The passion in your eyes.

When you look inside
You will always find,
What our dreams were made of,
I remember love,
Days have come and gone,
Hours feel so long,
What our dreams were made of,
I remember love.

I remember when,
You and I were friends,
The games we used to play,
Remember yesterday,
I see it in your eyes,
There's no reason why,
Your lies run through my head,
I can't comprehend,
When you look inside,
You will always find,
What our dreams were made of,
I remember love,
Days have come and gone,
Hours feel so long,
What our dreams were made of,
I remember love,

(softly)
Easy away the pain,

Turn it into night,
I remember love.
HOLY SHIT! i'm soooo freaking tired... it's ok.. just what... 12 more times of this and then it'll be ok.... just 12 more times... and then the semester will be over.... well.... what to talk about....

I can't really think of much to talk about because its the beginning of the day and i have nothing to say yet... sooo ya... i guess i'll add more later or something.... ciao

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Just talking

Wow, in a span of one week, i've met sooo many old friends and stuff! well not just met in person, but like actually talked to on msn in ages and stuff!

Let's see, there were a couple of ppl at ryerson which include: Fisher, Nnolika, Jenna, Robin, Kyle Cheung.
Then there are people online: Vicky, Erica
And there are new friends that i've started talking to: Lacey, Sarah, Emily, Raymond (timmies).

Pretty cool! got a new set of people to get acquainted with! =D

Ya, i kinda feel as if i'm older now. I've had this discussion with Linda the other day. We were at timmies and I just had to say to her that it's been a while since i've seen her. Or so it felt like it. And then I went on saying that I feel older now and now I haveta like make PLANS or ARRANGEMENTS to see people. It's such a piss off! Cuz not only do I have to well in school, but I have to somehow balance a social life as well. It sucks! Cuz before i could just wing most of the shit in high school, but now. Damn, things are so different.

Bah! Neways, on the GOOD side, i've met a lot of people and my bro and his gf got me an optical mouse for my laptop! =D it's so much fun! haha! I would be using it right now but i'm on an uneven surface. So ya... Op! gonna go into class! C-Ya

P.S. u know what i really hate about this shit? i ALWAYS get these spam comments... i just checked this after 2 hours and someone/something has already spammed my comments.. WTF pieces of shit

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Happy Bday to ME!

Yaye! i'm 19 now! officially! sweeeeeeet! somewhat.. lolz! I officially am old. Gonna be an old geezer soon =S damn. o well! for now i'm still a young adult! =D

Well, today's classes were FREAKING BORING. damn! Even though one of them was a tad entertaining. But the other one, omfg, it was soo boring. Watched a freakin video on how transistors were first created. Sooo boring.

Lets see, I also went out to dinner today with Val. She seemed, prettier than I remember. Maybe it's cuz she dressed up, or maybe it's just that I havn't seen her in a while or something. I'm still adjusting to the whole not being with her thing. But I think i'm managing pretty well.

Aside from all that, there isn't much else to talk about! haha! so i'm outz!

Ez

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

First day of school

Damn, i'm so freaking tired. It's almost 11pm and i haveta wake up in like 7 hours. not even, 6 ish... sheesh, i wonder why i don't switch my course... i really don't know... i chose to put it in the morning in hopes of something. Now that something won't happen, so why don't i change it? i feel like i'm so retarded right now. Ugh, whatever... let's write bout my day

It was an alright day... better than what i had expected... went to class, which was kind of a downer because i didn't know that many people in my class. So, that was a load of bs. Then my day got somewhat better cause there were soooo many people around i just had to look at some people. Lol say what you will but hey i'm a guy so screw u! Then i met up with some friends and we talked/walked a bit. Then we decided to go play some pool at a pool hall nearby. Played for about 2 hours since we had like 6 hours to kill. Then went to eat.. then went to a fucking bullshit class (Finance). Piece of shit prof. freaking writes on a whiteboard when the room is like a freakin auditorium. god damn.. next time i'm goin earlier to get a closer seat. ugh... whatever, it's just been a rough and long day today.

Gotta go slp now so i can pay attention in class and not fall asleep.

Ez

Monday, September 05, 2005

Not feeling too good

Damn i'm exhausted, even after sleeping for 7 hours. Still tired from that beating i took yesterday against Ku, Ryan, Dave and Mike. But y'know whatever, it was fun all in all.

Aside from exhaustion, I just woke up from a dream not too long ago, and I must say that I didn't like it. But even tho I didn't like it, I know it was the truth. The truth hurts sometimes, but I have no choice but to take it as it is. Everything I once thought was just an illusion... something fictional that could almost never be. So, i've fullfilled my promises, made my final struggle, and now, it's time to stop thinking of the fantasy that i've been holding on to for so long.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Back!

And i'm back! I must say... that trip was very relaxing. We basically did nothing at all! =D But we did do some stuff so it was fun!

Okay so, this is what happened for the trip. We left Tuesday because we thought that it might rain on wednesday. So, we ended up leaving that day but before we actually headed to Wasaga, we wanted to take a pit stop to Square One to go shopping. A couple of minutes after driving there, we were on the walkey talkeys and we realized that sq1 was like in the opposite direction of wasaga. So we just decided to goto Yorkdale. We walked around there for a lil bit trying to find some food because we were hungry as animals! Well, some of us were. So we ended up walking around finding the food court, then deciding that we should sit in somewhere and eat. So we went to Pickle Barrel.

I tell ya, that place was pretty cool looking and the food was just great. I had the fish and chips. DAMN those fish were huge. I only ate one, then my stomach was hurting cuz I was hungry before and I ate too fast. Dave was eating non-stop. He ate his plate of food, then ate my other fish. Animal I say. Lol. Then afterwards we went back to our cars. It was quite funny what happened while we were waiting for Mike to get to us.

Ok so basically, we were parked, and Dave drove to meet up with Nigel. So we found them and parked next to them. Then I got out to just chill inbetween the cars cuz that's where everyone was talking and stuff. Then Linda says something like "Is your car moving or something?" I was leaning on Daves car, so I just said that she was dreaming or something. Then after a while I felt the car moving. I turned around and I see the car moving slowly backwards as if it was in neutral. But the car was shut off and everything. So I goto Dave's window and i ask him what's up? LOL the guy didn't put the shifter in PARK. It was still in drive. Yet, somehow he was able to shut off the car?? Usually there's a safety feature for that I believe. So that was kinda odd. LoL. Then Mike came and we all took a nice cruise down to Wasaga.

On our way there we seriously lost Nigel. LoL. I looked back and I couldn't find nigel anywhere. So we called them to get directions and stuff to his house. LoL I swear, there's this one turn that on MapQuest, it says "make a slight left" This was from our first visit up to wasaga. All of us were like "WTF is a 'slight left'" When we get there, it is NOT a "slight left" it's a FULL left. LoL. And when we got there again this time, we all laughed about it again.

So, we got to wasaga in one piece, and we just unloaded everything and munched on our candy. Our first night wasn't that interesting. We couldn't decide what to do really, so we played a lil bit of everything. Which included cheat, crazy 8 count down, chess, reading magazines and stuff. I swear, Nigel remembers everything said in those magazines. We also watched "House of Wax". LoL. Well neways I believe that's all we did up till 3 or 4 in the morning. Then we all called it a night. Mike, Linda and Ryan shared a room, Dave had his own room, Nigel slept downstairs cuz he had to work the next day, and Virginia, Shirley and I shared a room. I know, lucky me! =D haha. So we all slept and since the forecast SEEMED like it was gonna rain on wednesday, I drove nigel to work. So I woke up at like 10 or so and drove him to work in Daves car. When I got back, I plopped back onto my air matress and laid there for a while.

Afterwards, I decided to go downstairs and play some video games till everyone woke up. I was playing Dynasty Warriors 4. Virginia and Shirley were the first ones up. And then it was Dave then the others. We all ate different things that day I believe. O wait no... I think we all had the McDeal. MCCHICKENS!! =D haha. Yup and on this day, we went to the beach but it was FREAKIN WINDY. So, we went shopping at this "Mall" haha! It was basically a walking area with stores on both sides. I swear it was like about 100 meters. So we went shopping and Ryan got a shirt and sunglasses. After that we went back to our cars, and ordered some pizza from where nigel works. Then I believe we watched Sin City. I'm so mad. Nigel's DVD played closed on my CD. Now there's a scratch on it and it skips like a whole scene. LoL. So now what i'm gonna do is keep the one I have and like use that as a display because it very special to me. And I'll go get another one when the price is cheaper =D. Then after we got to the part that screws up, we watched Harold and Kumar goto White Castle. LoL quite a funny movie. Then we ate pizza and everything.

Then night fell and we broke out the drinks! I was racing and I swear something was wrong with my stomach that day. I couldn't even finish a bottle of smirnoffs. Now how sad is that? My stomach kept growling at me and everything. Well neways after that, we all got bored and we did something which i forget. Then after that something, lol, we played hide and seek in the dark. Oh man that was fun. LoL the funniest thing was that Dave was drunkish and he hid the best! I couldn't find him and Mike couldn't find him either. For me, he was hiding under the sink in the cuboards. And for mike, he was hiding beside the water heater. Then we all just sorta danced around and sang to songs.

The next day, I was racing sommore and so was nigel and mike. And then we ate stuff like Taco Bell, Pizza Hut, Timmies, and yup!

Hmm what are the other highlights... We played dares on our last night there and then that was basically it. O wait we went to the beach the next day and built sand castles, and ryan dug his "toilet" lolz. then we came back and stopped by at cookstown outlet mall to go shopping. that lasted us till about 6 or so and then we went out to eat. And that was basically the whole trip!