That time of the year

It's that time of the year again everyone! Yup! the time of the year when everyone goes into hibernation to study for exams and everything. I too must go into hibernation so that I can get a good mark! =S I really need it too. I feel as if this semester was just terrible. Not just because of school, but other factors involved. I'm glad that soon this year will have passed. lol i've noticed that i've said that almost every year. There's always one significant moment within the year that i disliked and somewhat mark as a crappiness within that year. But of course there are happy times! =D and i mark those down too! =D just this year has a lot more negative than positive. *sigh* o well, what can ya do y'know. just hope the next year will be better =D

Soooooo what else is new. Oh, Dave headed off to china this morning. Won't be seeing that guy for about a month =S poop. dislike how many of my friends are so far away. Well, not THAT many but like virginia, dave, nigel sometimes, and cindy. sooo farrr haha. At least when we all get together, it's worthwhile! =D love our tight lil group =D

It's weird right now. I'm kinda tired but i woke up from a nap like 2 hours ago. dammn i think i'm getting TOO much sleep. I gotta start studying SOON. or else imma be fucked. I know i'm probably fucked for law. how the hell did i get a 62 in that law midterm when I was cheating off ppl who got a 75. like wtf. pisses me off. Maybe i should like go take a look at my test to make sure there aren't any discrepencies. OMG the highest i can get is a 77 in that course now. great... most likely imma get a 60-70 on the exam meaning i'll end up with a friggin C. god damnit

hmmm let's see what i might get in my courses.
ITM320 -- Possibly an A- if i try really really hard
ITM400 -- HAHA ummm, most likely no more than a B
ITM405 -- O GOD ok ummm probably no more than a C+
PCS182 -- I believe this one will be a B+ ish
LAW -- HAHAHA like i said above most likely a C

Fuck this semester bites major ass. bahhh whatever that's all folks! cant wait for winter holidays! =D

Coooollldd

Damnit it's cold out there! Disliking these kinds of days. Like it's okay when there's NO wind. those are alright days because you can throw snowballs and stuff =D Another reason why i dislike winter is that u can't drive as fast! =S especially with my car, i think my tires are like not suitable for winter. Well they're probably all season tires, but it sure doesn't feel that way! lol

Had an interesting talk yesterday with someone. I wouldn't say it went well nor would i say it was horrible. I'm just glad that someone knows the thoughts running through my head. I myself don't even know whats running through my head. It's just a jumble up in there. Hard to put things together. I think i'll leave that for another day to discuss tho. It's not like I don't have any time. Plus there isn't much else that's going on in my head anyways aside from exams comming up. I really hope that it doesn't stick with me forever tho. cuz that'd seriously be shit.

y'know i find that almost every day, i spend all my time in my room. Like i never leave my room. It's kinda interesting. I never used to be so confined to my room. And it's not like i'm studying or anything. i'm just sitting here staring at my computer. and listenning to music.. and reflecting. very weird...

neways bak to doing nothing.

Changes

It's amazing how things change so fast. One minute you're on top of a mountain, the next you're tumbling down, and then soon after that you crack your head open on the rigid terrain below.

Everything is just so different now. I'm getting older by the second, and I actually feel a lil bit more mature than I did maybe 2-3 years ago. I know everyone wishes that things would stay the same in one point in time in life and i'm no different. And i'm sure everyone has delt with the low point in their life after that one moment. I'm currently in that moment. It's so different compared to before because the constant that was in your life is no longer there. Well it's there but it's not the same as it once was. It doesn't have the same impact as it once had.

Today, proved that things have definitely changed. I'm not saying that I didn't notice the change till today, but like i've seen how severe things have gotten. I was talkin to someone while waiting and it was weird because they were relieved to see me. 'Why?' you may ask. Well it's because they've seen me with her for such a long time, and to them, i'd like to think that they think that i'm a better person overall. But, that wasn't the most severe thing. The thing is, when taking the picture, it was really bad. 'how?' you may ask, well, there didn't seem to be the closeness anymore, as if we were afraid of each other. And what was even more retarded was that they asked us "are you two bf/gf?" we both sorta hesitated and gave different answers. LoL, i'm sure the nice ladies taking our pictures were very confused.

O well, I hope that the pictures turned out great regardless of the confusion and the lack of closeness/being scared. It may seem that things have been set in stone now, but really there's always surprises, and i'm not saying that i'm banking on these surprises, but instead i'm more like letting things happen. Cuz it's not my move anymore.

Well I hope I stayed on topic in this one. My mind isn't doing all that great with this. So with that, i'm out.

Very interesting

Interesting morning I had today. I would have never thought i'd run into this one person. Quick guess who. common, guess!!! fine i'll just tell you.

I saw Amanda today at STC waiting for the RT. She hasn't changed much. It's quite amazing to think that just 3 years ago (i know it's long) me and her used to be tight. Now look at us. Very very interesting. We took the subway together while talkin to each other and sharing stories and stuff. Before like couple years ago and stuff I was soo mad at her because of the way we ended up. So we didn't talk, and eventually I sorta just let it be, because she has her life and I have my own. I don't know why but it felt pretty good talking to her again. There wasn't that awkwardness or anything. Just sorta just chatted about random things.

Pretty cool how her and her bf have been going out for about a year and 2 months? something like that. Must be nice that she could spend time with him up in missisauga where she goes to school. It was quite funny because while talking to her, she still seems like the shy girl I used to know. Because most of the time she'd look away or look down, and stuff like that. Just little things that I noticed are the same. LoL and how she's still quite forgetful at times. She was telling me stories of times she's forgotten somethings.

I'm surprised that I even remember all these things about her. I even remember that when her nail polish is chipping or whatever, she'd usually rip them off and lol it looked like she was gonna do it soon because her nail polish was chipping. LoLz.

Yaa I know, random things I notice. But all in all, it was nice to talk to an old friend =) y'know catch up on things. Wish her the best of luck =D

Now as for work right now, i'm fucking bored as hell! I COULD finish my assignment right now but i'm too god damn lazy. I started working on it this morning and i was working soooooo slow and i still managed to finish 3/4 of it in like 2 hours. it's fuking rediculous. but the problem is that i can't quite play games because i left my FUCKING MOUSE AT HOME! sooo pissed off! ugh.. and I think i'm quite set for the astronomy test i'll have on thursday, because I also ran into Faizan today on the subway. and he was asking me questions and i just kep answering them. They were mainly calculation quesitons, but still. As for access, iunno i still need to read the book and stuff. So yup!

What else is there to blabber about. OHH! i learned stuff in a new language today!! =D

I learned that the word Sayang means sweetheart in malaysian! and that Saya .... shit.. ok i'll give the pronounced version...

Sa-ye chin-te pa-de-mu

that means I love you =D i gotta ask her how to write it again. cuz i already forgot =S

Well today seems to be turning out to be a decent day. no people commin in for help, only a friend needed help, and i let him copy my code. haha and yup! that's about it! =D

Dammn

Wow, it's 5:45am and i'm awake. Why? i have no idea. My body just doesn't want to let me sleep. I've got like 5ish hours till work.

Well i guess i could get an early start on complaining then. I HATE SCHOOL. i don't know why! i'm doing so HORRIBLE this semester! i just got my law midterm back.. 62! like WTF that's pitiful! fuking piece of shit! uggghh, and the fact that all my courses are like in the 60-70 range right now pisses me off. i think i might haveta redo some courses during the summer. fawq, that's just fucking gay. baaahwhatever... shit happens... neways imma try and sleep

Been a while

Wow, it's really been a while since i've written something here. Guess I just havn't had the will to write anything in here. LoLz either that or nothing's being going on with me. I guess it's a lil bit of both. I'm quite bored right now, cuz i'm in class and its presentation time. *sigh*

Well well well, what's going on in life nowadays? NOTHING! haha, actually i'll just blabber on about things that's been going on. I've noticed that there's a resemblance between me, my bro, linda, and her bro. The resemblance is that we all have more friends of the opposite sex than we do of the same sex! It's quite interesting actually. You'd think that we'd have more friends the same sex as us, but in reality it's not. There's a psychological question that Linda can try and answer!! haha.

Let's see, Oh yea! These guys that I met at volunteering, he's got problems. LoLz girl problems, Sorta reminds me of me when I first started out. But then again it's different cuz we started at different times and such. But anywho, things should be going alright with him now. Me and a buddy gave him a few pointers. =P

What else is there. Ohhh I started to work out again. Who knows how long this'll last =S I'm a freaking weak ass! lolz! especially my abs! they're SOO weak. Tried doing this "test" to see if you could do the same things as a "soldier" or osmething like that. One of them army guys and stuff. And I swear, I tried the challenge for your abs, DAMN i failed. LOL i think i could do the push ups, and chin ups, but not the abs. It's was terrible. LoLz. I think i'll try again today. haha. But yup!

Hmmm there ain't much else to talk about really. Nothing much happening between friends, just chillin and stuff. Oh, one night I was out with Ku, Mike, Ryan, Linda and Joyce and y'know I had a pretty good time. Wasn't like HORRIBLE or nething, just with friends... chilling, having some fun.

Yup! what else is there to talk about. I kinda miss talking to some people. Like Dave i havn't talked to much. Erica, havn't seen/talked to her in a while. Oh btw, thanks Erica for that comment =). Havn't talked to Elmo in a while, and havn't talked much with Val lately. even though i saw her yesterday and spent some time with her. Just felt as if my mind was elsewhere.

Well I believe that's all that's on my mind today. C YA!

Things

Yup! well in case none of you know how i've been feeling, I havn't been feeling that great. I really don't know why. Even before things started to happen between me and her a couple of days ago, I just felt horrible. Guess it's that second sense that I usually have when something is comming to an end. wow, havn't felt that since a long time now. But it seemed a lil different this time around. Can't quite put my finger on it tho. O well

So, basically what I was feeling was that everything is just turning out bad. School is sucking like mad, Relationship is going down the drain, family and friends haven't failed me yet, but there are times when I don't know.

Well, I think it's set that a chapter of my life is comming to an end. It was quite a chapter too, filled with everything you could think of. Just a whole lot of drama. It's too bad it isn't possible to erase some things from the chapter and like re-write it. As Ryan said, "you'd need a time machine for that". Indeed I do. But what can you do, it's set in stone. I really thought it'd last till the end of the book, but nope. Guess it's true that all good things must come to an end.

If I were to put a positive spin on things, I could say that it's really not the end though, because even though the relationship part has diminished, we'll always be friends. We could still look out for each other, talk and everything, just that our lives won't necessarily revolve around each other.

yup, so the chapter comes to a close. I'm gonna miss the great times we've had together. Hope we'll continue having some good times in the future =)

Funny thing

It's pretty interesting how things work out in this world. Shit happens, I know, there's not all mighty being that says "YOU DID SOMETHING GOOD SO U'LL BE TREATED GOOD" At least that's what I think. I just look at it as whatever happens happens... If something goes wrong then shit happens, I suppose there is somewhat of a "balance" in the world. But usually it never works for the good stuff.

Ah well, that's quite interesting. Anyways, i'm quite bored and distracted right now in class. LoL after all I AM on this thing writing while he's talking about something. lol

Y'know I feel kinda bad for this person I met over friendster. She's got soo many problems going on with her. Seems like nowadays there are more and more of those types of girls. In distress, having problems with guys etc. Iunno if her problem is similar to mine, or different. My thoughts would be that they're a little bit similar. In that she is also waiting and seeing what's going on, but we differ in that she "beats" herself up for it. Not litterally of course. *sigh* soo much hurt/pain in the world. But what can u do y'know.

Well i'm pretty tired today. LoL slept kinda late, but I didn't mind, cuz I was helping out a friend. Plus it was kinda fun. LoL call me a nerd or whatever but I do enjoy lil challenges. I should really start learning other programming languages. The only thing I know right now is VB, a lil of HTML and a lil of Javascript.

OOO man, I want to get out of this class already. But then again when I get home, i'll haveta do a lot of hmwk. Ugh, have a finance problem set due, and an essay due, both on friday. =S *sigh* this stinks like bum. neways i should pay attention.