Happy days

Ahhhhh I do believe happier days are ahead of me now. Lots of things to look forward to. Could be getting a new job soon downtown doing some IT stuff. But it'll be a call center IT help desk kinda thing. But heym it's better than timmies.. Sure i'll be spending most of my time going to and from work. but I think I can live with it.

Plus I have something to work towards and that's for my car. I'm quite happy that i have my car sitting in my garage, but the only problem is the amount of work I have to do to it. I want to strip the thing as fast as I can so I can send it to the body shop and get the rust fixed as well as the paint.

Now that i've got me out of the way... time to talk about others!
Being specific, afriend named Jacky and his wife Doreen just had a baby!!! Soooo cool!! They've got a little baby girl named Chloe! It's so awesome! Someone that's roughly my age having a kid. I think he's about 2-3 years older? But he's an awesome guy and his wife is really fun to be around. Great couple I think =D.

Ummmmm Everything else is the same as usual. Comming up to the end of the semester so all the projects and stuff are due and i guess i'm stressing a little bit because I feel as if i'm really busy in the next couple of weeks. But i'll manage things i'm sure. I'm usually able to manage things last minute. I've got to get out of that habit.

So I'm getting a Car

So, i'm getting a car. I should be so excited right? Well i'm not... I was pretty excited earlier like yesterday, but all that came fucking crashing down in my fucking face today.

So today I go and look at the car, expected rust is there, nothing really new from what I saw yesterday. Aside from the weather stripping on one side is missing, found some more rust, and the muffler looks rusted.

I'll finish this later... gotta write an e-mail

Y'know what I really dislike? People who telling you what you should. Like common, It's you're own fucking decision. You do what you want. And if you get stuck, then don't come crying bak to those people and say you can't do it nemore. Like i'm fucking 20 years old. I can make my own fucking decisions. Whether they may be bad ones or good ones I don't know yet. But it's for damn sure that this is what I want. I don't splurge my money, and I rarely ask for anything. I try and do shit on my own. But honestly, FUCK OFF!

This is what I fucking want. I want a car. That is what I want. Of course you can't always have what you want, but I think I can do this. I believe that I can cope with having a car, school and a job. I see other people around me doing it. So why can't I? I know most likely i'll have to work 2 jobs over the summer or something to keep it up and everything. But hey, that's what I chose. It was my fucking choice and i'll have to live with the consequences and everything. Don't fucking come up to me and say "oh I don't think you should do this because you're just wasting your money on a car that will probably fall apart in a couple of years"

I know this fact thank you very much. Though it may be tru in some sense and a car will always depreciate and everything but hell, it's a car, I like cars, leave me the fuck alone. Again it's MY decision.

I know this post could've been more organized as in my thought would flow, but i'm just pulling things off the top of my head right now.

thoughts

When something is lost. Is it truely lost? What if it was an inanimate object such as trust, love, or friendship? It's really hard to say. When you lose an objecct, there's always the possibility of finding it. (With a little help perhaps) But something that you can't touch is much harder to "find" than a physical object. In my opinion, it is hard to "find" or "get bak" the non-physical stuff. It's basically human nature.
I walk around in the world minding my own business. Do what I have to do every day, and I live my life a day at a time. The past in my point of view, is the past. Of course, as they say, the past will haunt you. I try to not let that happen with me. If something is too far back in the past, I let it go. Probably the reason why I don't hate/keep grudges against people that are over 5-10 years old. I don't know if that's technically a good thing or bad thing.
But i've found that no matter what, after i've "let it go" it's hard to get bak to the point that was once achievable in the past. It's hard to communicate, hard to just do anything.
I don't know what i'm saying anymore. But right now, I'm not feeling too great. It's partially because I feel like i'm standing still. The world moves around me, and everything changes, while i'm just standing here, dumbfounded. People come and go, the ones we care about leave us, enemies come in masses.
I find it sad that there once was a time where the world was just right. Everything fit into place. Everyone had their role, played it well, and it was just our own little world. Where we could have fun, get along, talk about anything. Yes, that was a great world. The remains of that world is now but fragments. Bits and pieces lie here and there. We try frantically to put it together, but to no avail. We may accomplish putting it back together, but as i've learned...
"The value of something lost is greater than the value gained when the change is identical"I am sorry that it's been lost. Hope it is found someday...